When life is changing it’s sometimes hard to know when one chapter ends and another begins. Yes- we have milestone moments: a graduation, a birth, someone passes away, you close on a house, you get married, etc. These moments seem so clear cut and defined- but often times from the outside you never know the road traveled to get there.
I recently moved across the country, leaving Denver, CO the place I was born and raised, where I went to college, and where I built a life afterward. Aside from a summer long stay in Silverton, CO- I had never left home. But somewhere along the way the seed of longing for something different was planted inside of me. Maybe it was in 5th grade when researching different states across America and discovered Florida for the first time, or maybe it was senior year of high school when looking out of state for college options, or the first time I traveled with my partner, Dave, to his hometown in the north country of New York, or maybe as I became a successful adult navigating the real estate market in Colorado- but over the last few years it became abundantly clear the more I paid attention that I didn’t want to build a forever home there. I wanted something more.
And this is why I say it’s interesting to know when things start and begin. Over the last 18 months I’ve had two feet in separate chapters- one ending and one beginning. I came to a realization in December of 2021 that if I was going to be in better alignment with my soul that I needed to stop running my successful photography business. This decision in itself was one most in my life questioned- why would I walk away from something that was doing so well? Is the answer- it simply stopped making me happy- enough? Even though I loved my clients, I loved the creative work, and I loved working for myself in many ways- the in and out day to day stressors of being a business owner were not what I wanted. It took experiencing it to understand that. And somewhere in this equation I also knew that exploring other options would only be possible for me once I closed that door.
It took all of 2022 to work towards that ending, all along I knew I had to simply navigate the discomfort of the transition. What was next? How would I make money? Would I be happy? All of these questions and so much more not only ran through my own head but were asked from those around me. I didn’t have those answers and so I began to focus on finding the answers to the questions that I was more interested in: