Taking That Leap of Faith
One thing I don’t think gets discussed enough is that leap part- it’s nothing like our minds think- or at least how my mind thinks. I always thought those moments in my life would feel like the slow motion moments in sports movie where the dramatic music is playing, and the whole thing is so visceral and played out. Have you ever heard a newly married couple respond to how it feels by saying, “it feels the same as it was before.”?
The actual leap which is this huge thing as changing your job, but in reality it looks like saying goodbye to your co-workers, driving the same route home, and going to be the same way you had every other night that you had that job. In the morning, you wake up and you don’t go in to that job- but you’re still the same person. There’s been no magical transformation that happens externally- even with big external changes- and internal transformations don’t happen overnight.
So that magical moment that you’re looking for, has to start from within, and it becomes up to you to carefully and intentionally begin to observe the changes that happen within you.
The Space That Comes After The Leap
So all of this is to say, it is okay if after this big moment in your life that you thought you were going to feel totally transformed- that instead you find yourself feeling a little lost, empty, or aimless. In my experience, this will not last forever.
In fact, giving yourself permission to for a certain amount of time to grieve the loss of what was is a really wise thing to do, because most of the time there’s going to be some amount of that- no matter how excited you are for what’s next.
The emptiness that comes at the beginning of something new, is just like the dark moon in the sky- it’s a place before the light can begin to shine. It’s a blank canvas- there for you to plant the seeds of your intentions, to develop systems that support your endeavors, and importantly- to rest as needed- because you’re gone through something big.